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We generally hear these words from the people ” I don’t have time” . I really don’t understand how can one pass these kind of statement. Everybody has same amount of time and that is 24 hrs in a day. It is up to each individual to manage it. For me time  =  care. If you spend time with somebody or you give time to somebody, it means you really care for him/her. I don’t mean that one has to shoot emails or give calls like we get for credit cards ( 🙂 ) . But i certainly believe this ..

Time is free, but it’s priceless. You can’t own it, but you can use it. You can’t keep it, but you can spend it. Once you’ve lost it, you can never get it back.

We all have a measured amount of time. Nobody knows (to the day/minute/second) how much time they have left to live. So the amount of time you spend with an individual (or doing something for that individual) determines how much you actually care for them. I mean seriously, face it! You won’t give your enemy more than a few seconds (if even that) but more than likely you will give your family and friends hours or days. You will take the time — even amid a crazy schedule — to spend time with people you truly love.

I wish, for whom i am writing this will understand. Just remember: words aren’t everything! Give the person your time and show them with actions that the words aren’t just empty. You actually mean what you say! Prove it!

So does time really matter? ………

Cheers….

🙂

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Let me clarify… i always think positively .. But sometimes my heart and mind doesn’t sync.. that time these thoughts come into my mind….

Yes. I am a woman. I am smart, brilliant, popular and friendly. I am very successful in my career….

In fact; I have a lot of friends who care for me a lot!!

Do I really have true friends?

I don’t know…. May be i don’t feel comfortable to share my feelings and thoughts with them….May be my ego doesn’t allow me to share my thoughts with them… i always think not to cry or cribbing in front of others as it is just waste of time for others.

Everyone likes my presence, everyone loves my company,  but no one actually knows me, strange isn’t?

I try hard to laugh when people surrounding me begin to laugh aloud rather than bursting into tears behind closed doors for my emotional trauma and finally ending up suffering in silence. But why does it always happen to me?

The truth is – I really don’t know.

At home, I have sacrificed my personal happiness to play the role of an obedient daughter and an understanding sister expecting nothing in return. I don’t mean that i have sacrificed my career. Sometimes i feel that i am living as a stranger in my own family; I wish to keep myself happy by an artificial smile;  All fingers pointing at me; for every decision I take.

Sometimes; I wish to run away.

As a woman, I too have dreams – dancing in rain, being surrounded by flowers and valued for my worth. I do not wish to be a puppet in society anymore and crave to control my lost strings of freedom.

With my cherished dream still remaining unfulfilled – Accepting me as I am.

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I talk. A lot. All my friends know that once I get started, I usually don’t shut up, especially if it involves talking about myself. As I’ve become more aware of this fact over the last few years, I’ve consciously made the effort to shut my mouth and listen more. As hard as I try, I still talk a lot, and I talk loudly.

I don’t, however, talk about my emotions. I’ll discuss anger towards politics, or happiness about going to the beach, or sleepiness when I’m exhausted. But I don’t discuss my feelings about my relationships, and I definitely don’t talk about the break-up.

I have a hard time asking for help, of any kind. I’m independent and refuse to show any sign of weakness. Because of this, I wait to express myself until I can’t hold it in anymore. Then I lose my shit for about an hour, and then I’m over it again.

Luckily for me, I have amazing friends. Amazing friends who realize this about me. After reading this post on my blog, i am sure they will be worried about me and are there for me if I need them. They understand that talking about it isn’t my thing, and they don’t push the issue.

The thing is, I don’t mind talking about it because it makes me emotional – it doesn’t. I just don’t want to talk about it because it’s not productive. Logically, I have it all figured out. I know why he left, I know what he was thinking, where he was coming from, and that there was nothing I did to cause it (or could do to fix it). I fully understand the reasoning and I’m confident that I’m going to fall in love again and find a wonderful person and eventually will end up with The One. I know these things – in my head.

My heart hasn’t exactly caught up. It’s been a struggle to keep my head and my heart from communicating these past few months. I’ve been mostly successful, but there have been a few instances where I’ve just let it all go. This is healthy, and I don’t fight it when it comes. I just don’t want him to consume my life. I don’t let men consume my life after they’ve left me.

I just need time. I need time to think and to process and to forgive and to forget and to heal. My friends are giving me that, and I love them for it. I know that when I want to talk about it, they’ll listen. They’ll listen and not offer advice unless I ask for it. It’s not the advice I need – I give that to myself with my logical head. I just sometimes need comfort for my heart.

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new luck upon me
Oh it’s taking so long I could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if I take my heart’s advice
I should assume it’s still unsteady
I am in repair, I am in repair

In Repair – John Mayer

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You don’t know it yet,
But one day you’re gonna have regrets.
When you realize your foolish ways,
You’re gonna love me one day.
And it might take some time,
But my love is like a vintage wine.
And it gets better as it grows with age, hey, hey,
You’re gonna love me one day.

You’ll be sorry, you’ll be blue,
And there’s nothin’ I can do.
‘Cos everything you’ve done to me,
Is comin’ back to you.

And when you see the light,
And you’re havin’ lots of sleepless nights,
Will you dream about your castaways? Hey, hey,
You’re gonna love me one day.
You’re gonna love me one day.

You’ll be sorry, you’ll be blue,
And there’s nothin’ I can do.
‘Cos everything you’ve done to me,
Is comin’ back to you.

And when you see the light,
And you’re havin’ lots of sleepless nights,
Will you dream about your castaways? Hey, hey,
You’re gonna love me one day.
You’re gonna love me one day.
You’re gonna love me one day.
You’re gonna love me one day.
You’re gonna love me one day.

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I got the e-mail from one of my fnd about kind of persons we meet everyday in our life. I thought to share it with the world.

I am sending this to you to see how many actually read my post. Your response will be interesting. Pay attention to what you read.  After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason why it was shared with you.  Here goes:

 

 

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.  When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.  When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.  They are there for the reason you need them to be.  Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,  this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.  Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.  Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.  What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

 

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

 

 

 

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I come across this poem while making my final draft report. It is 3.00am in the night… The words of this poem are really touching and make me awake.

It’s Raining Tears

I have tears in my eyes,
But you don’t see them there.
I know you don’t see them,
Because you don’t really care

They’re flowing like rivers,
Falling like the rain.
The only reason they’re there
Is because im in so much pain

The tears that are falling
Are falling for you
You toy with my emotions
And throw them askew

Im drowning in my tears
Im in head deep
I see you looking at me
And I start to weep

I hope you know
That I gave it all I could
You said this wouldn’t happen
But I knew that it would

This is it now
Im taking my last breath
The tears have swallowed me
And I have nothing left.

rayni black

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Hope still alive……….

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Food for Thoughts

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Woman

अपने साथ लेकर चलती है,
समझौतों के कई जोड़ से गूँथी हुई
ख़ामोशी दर ख़ामोशी, मज़बूत होती हुई
कभी चाँदी की, कभी सोने की
कभीइस घरकी, कभीउस घर” की
तुमने नहीं देखी
हर औरत के पाँवो में बंधी होती है
इक सुंदर सी ज़ंज़ीर

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